i swear i'm going to make myself ill.

and i'm having a fricken blast at the same time.

i've been up since 8 this morning. i got home at 11:30 last night. the night before i went to bed at 6am and got up around 10:30ish. the night before was an almost as late night, and tonight its already 2 am.

i'm supposed to get up at 10 tomorrow to go see "S". i want to go to see him as a friend. but only that. and i don't even want to think about anything else about him. i've been so good the past ....2 months? that i think(hope) it'll be easy to be like "yeah well....gotta go to work" and just leave.

why am i still up a 2 am??

"buhleted!"

i really want to go to bed but i'm too busy laughing and saying how i need to go to bed. and so in the background of my conversation is this typing.

dammit all the hell.

and now, we present, the countries of the world, sung by yako warner.

oooh firewater. i could fall asleep to this now.

oh dear what can the matter be 7 old ladies are locked in the lavatory...they've been there from sunday to saturday, nobody knew they were there.

thats right folks, i'm officially crazygomadinsane.

and thats a word. i wordified it.

seriously pom pom, i'm about to pee my pants.