after i wrote out that last entry i did some thinking.

reading it, its just confusing. but for the safety of vagueness and of my own sanity, i'll explain some, without details. without specifics.

i don't normally sleep well unless i'm in my own bed. not at first at least.

the fact that i slept relatively good is just wierd. i don't know if it was the exhaustion, or just my lack of really caring.

my lack of caring self is back again. showed up friday after work. it makes things really simple, because i just stumble around not giving 2 fucks about things. i just go with the flow.

thats not to say i don't care. see. i'm a confusing girl i am.

what i mean is this: i'm not letting myself be affected by things as i normally would. this weekend would have previously been some sort of ordeal instead of just a fun weekend. i'm sure i've just confused everyone even more that they were originally...but it really is hard to explain.

in other news...i really really don't want to work today. at all. its been too nice having 2 days off. even if it did snow. even if i stayed indoors most of the time. even if i was completely broke.

must pee now.

listening to: BT (noticing a trend huh? yeah....shaddup!) mercury and solace (quivver mix)

ps this is good "try and wake the hell up fool" music.

i'm still sleepy.