considering how broke i am....and how much i'm all mixed up inside, i have to admit i had a really decent day.

on the drive home, a song came on in juli's car that just totally mellowed me out. the version i can find isn't as good as the one on the radio...it was probably some sort of mix but this one is still decent.

everything is seemingly decent.

i've yet to type out that email i spoke about awhile ago...not sure exactly what/how i want to say. i've got to stop doing things like that though. especially when i'm not sure how others feel. hopefully things will just kind of...not matter in that way.

i mean...i don't know.

i'd like either outcome, but know for my own sanity it'd be easier to just go with one over the other...no matter how much fun the other could be.

i'm too much of the thinking and not enough of the feeling.

or else too much of the feeling and not enough of the thinking.

no balance here. one day one way, the next day, the next way.

listening to: trance nation - just believe