i feel very...disoriented again today.

not sure why.

i'm gonna go lie in bed and just stare at random nothings until whatever is in need of being sorted out, GETS sorted out.

does that really make sense?

didn't think so.

i was out of the house for a few hours. then juls decided it was time for her to head to her boyfriend's house and ditched me. this time though, i didn't really mind.

i'm kind of upset all my friends have ditched me, basically for the whole weekend.

i wanted to see the matrix. last night or tonight.

now i'll be lucky to see it before next friday.

i'm complaining. yes. so what.

the only chance i have of seeing it is a: with someone who i don't know if they'd actually like to go with me or b: my brother's friends who are apparently in the city.

option a would be fun. because i personally think it'd be a great time.

option b...well would be wierd, because i don't know any of my brother's friends except for when they partied at the house and answered the phone for some reason involving alcohol and video games. i didn't ask.

anyways. i'm gonna take my confused/disoriented self and hide in my room. like a hermit.

i need a new job.

i'm thinking of taking a job on the very very south side. it scares me though...but its such a better option over this bs that is "rona" asswipes....all rona is a bunch of asswipes right now.

fudgity fudge i say.

I WANT TO GO SEE THE FRICKEN MATRIX!

even though i've heard it sucks potash. or at least most of it does. who gives....i mean....keanu reeves....carrie ann moss. groooooowwwrrr!

music: CCR - run through the jungle