phew. i was gonna get all ranty about not being able to update...it kinda seems like theres never one particular time when i can't update. just whenever i feel the need everyone else on my mind wave does too. damn us and our linked together minds.

anyways....i worked 6 hours today. i only slept for maybe 5. maybe. thats stretching it. drastically. in reality i was lucky to get 4 hours...but for my own sanity i'll say 5 and think that i won't be as exhausted in 20 minutes.

coming home early does rock though. the fact that i now have the possiblilty to waste half a day away doing...pretty much whatever the hell i want...rocks. i'm thinking a little nap...maybe an hour...and then wander around somewhere. since everyone is working. shit for sticks...all of you!

also, i've been reading a few new diaries . they all somehow make me want to read further and further backwards until suddenly i've been reading for 2 hours and wonder just how much of a dork i really am. but nobody else will know that. heh.

anyways. point of mentioning them is a: disposable camera exchange...how fricken much fun would that be? even just random photos...i want to do it. does someone else want to too? i'm tempted to just say to my friends here "take a camera, take pictures of whatever you do during the day, i'll do the same, and then we'll give each other the cameras" of course it wouldn't be nearly as fun or exciting...but it'd still be neat. point b: i miss my drinking days....yet i don't. i mean i bring this up all the time but i read entries (and not just there...in any random diary theres bound to be fun times) and think "remember when i was like that? or thought things crazily like that..." its just nostalgia. and its only been a year. but i'm obviously doing better now. health wise i mean...and probably personality wise...i think i was drinking to the point where i was a bitch without it...and i screwed up my personal life pretty good too thanks to alcohol and summer and going out every night....

wow. i just typed. without thinking. it was great.

i think i'm gonna go have a nap now. or else just lie in bed with my eyes open...that might be better. but i need to rest some. or else i'll wear myself out.

but first....i think its cute he'll call me now for no reason....and that the other day i called him to get the hockey score because i knew he'd be watching. i think my crush is developing a bit more than i expected...not that i mind though....so long as i don't end up getting my ass kicked...which i won't worry about...not yet at least.

sleep time. yes.

more later tonight probably.