i forgot to mention my breakdown at work yesterday didn't i?

yeah....i bawled for no apparent reason. essentially i couldn't help it anymore...i just....CRIED.

i felt like a dumb ass. thank god that amy was in the office, even though because of her (slightly) i started (she asked if i was ok "you're not your normal chipper self" "i'm grumpy" "if you need to talk you can talk to me" "if i talk, i'm gonna cry" *CRY*) i kinda just....exploded. i called the other girls (hayley/di) and told them i was going outside, and ran out to the smoke pit, where at that point i wished i smoked...i need SOMETHING...instead i took deep breaths and tried to ignore voices of other staff floating around until i heard hayley and dianna who apparently ran out of the store to try and see what was wrong with me.

i'm ok now. i was ok within minutes...well...i mean i wasn't bawling anymore and didn't even feel the need.

i'm mentioning this because my bus isn't for another 30 minutes, and i don't want to go to work. this sucks.

also, he asked how work was last night when i was talking to him, and i said it sucked, so all night he tried to make me laugh....it meant a lot actually...and when i "finally" laughed he was all "there, my day is done, i got you to laugh at least once"

yesterday sucked and rocked all in one.

i'm going to 7-11 now...slurpee...or maybe pop...i don't know. i'm too tired to think about it.

fucking 6 am.